I realize that this makes me sound like an insomniac, but I assure you I'm definitely not. I love my sleep. Once I get into bed, I always drift off in under ten minutes. On weekends, I can sleep until noon, and I often do if I can. So, my issue isn't falling asleep - it's actually getting into bed.
I'm not a morning person by any stretch. It takes everything I have to drag myself out of bed at 6:30 every morning (even after hitting the Snooze button more than a few times). I'm not very social in the morning, and I'm the first to admit I can be a little grumpy. Leo knows this, and he tries so hard to ensure I get to bed at a decent hour so that I'm not completely exhausted and miserable when morning comes around. I can understand this; I mean, he has to wake up next to me every morning! He tries to enforce an 11:00 p.m. bedtime rule, and I honestly do try to obey it, but I just get so distracted! I'm either online, or caught up in a TV show, or having a late shower, or doing something that I don't really need to be doing. Leo has warned me time and time again, and after another late night, he finally did something about it. You got it - I got a spanking today.
He decided on 180 hand spanks on the bare bottom. He always insists on bare bottom spankings right from the beginning. There's no spanks over the pants, then the panties, and finally the bare bottom. It's always straight to the bare. While there are a few positions he likes me in, one of his preferred ones is when I am on all fours on the bed with my back arched and my butt up. I'm not very good at holding my position during spankings, and I'm the queen of trying to cover my bottom with my hands. Leo has combatted this with a new rule where I receive extra spanks for resisting or trying to block swats. Today, he told me that I could receive 150 spanks if I maintained good behaviour throughout the spanking. Instead, I chose to struggle and received the full 180. This is something that I really need to work on. Also today, I had been messing around on Leo's computer, which is his baby. It's his Mac computer, and being the computer whiz that he is, he treasures that thing (I'm more of a PC girl myself). He can't stand when I mix up his files, and he was not impressed when he found out what I was doing, especially when I knew I already had a spanking coming. So, I really wasn't doing myself any favours today.
I understand that this DD thing is new for us, and is very foreign for Leo especially. And while the fact that he's willing to put these rules in place and follow through with spankings is very meaningful, I think that I'm really craving a genuine spanking that will bring me to tears and have me truly contrite. Don't get me wrong - his hand spanks are hard, and they do hurt. I'm just not sure if they're completely getting the message across yet. I know that this is going to be a gradual process, and that it's going to take some time. I understand that a DD marriage doesn't blossom overnight. I don't want to push him, because I know that it's an adjustment for both of us and he's still trying to see where he fits in this whole thing, as am I. I suppose I just need to be patient and grateful that I at least have a husband who's willing to try!
For now, I should probably start winding down and getting ready for bed, or else I might have another spanking to write about tomorrow...